I have been having a lot of anxiety lately related to being Link’s mom. I have been worried about tragedies. Tragedies that could happen to us. I have been drowning in tears and fears. I have not been able to understand how I am supposed to trust God with Link – that He will protect him from tragedy.
This morning I woke up, worked out with my trainer, and walked to my office and decided that today I was going to start trusting God. It was amazing the rush of excitement and relief that went through me at that moment. Totally the Holy Spirit.
I know that this will be a continuous struggle for me – it always has. God and I don’t always have the same idea of what is best for me. He knows how things work themselves out, and how what happens can be used to glorify Him – I do not. At least not right away.
So as we embark on the month of thanksgiving, and on this Halloween day, I am ending my month of fears. I am choosing to trust God with my beautiful, wonderful little miracle that God trusted me with.