I am alive. I am thankful for this factor. Today I have registered for college. I will be going to Inver Hills this year. My first class starts on August 25th… Wonderfully early, but the sooner it is started, the sooner it is over. I have a new layout now. Do you like it? I am not sure if I totally do, it does need a few changes. But that is fine. They can happen some day. Tomorrow I will leave for Arizona. I will be gone until the 9th. It is 1030 right now. I wish it was 1100. If any of you would like to pray for my team and I while we are down in AZ, it would be much appreciated. I hope you all will have a wonderful week.
I am leaving in about 1.23 hours and will be headed to Hayward, WI. I am going to be gone until the 24th on hopefully my last family vacation. I have not been looking forward to it, but I think I will be able to have some fun. Now, don’t think you can come break into my house. There will be people staying here to watch our cats. I will miss you all and I hope you have a great week.*Nikki- I love you lots. I wish I could have talked to you before I left, but I didn’t. Have a great week and I will see you when I get back. Don’t go mackin on too many guys!*Justin- I will see you on Friday! Don’t miss me too much. Be a good boy and drink your milk. I love you.Yes. Those are my friends. Yay for me. Adios.
27Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?Matthew 6
34Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. God has our lives mapped out for us. He knows what will happen every moment. Now, this does get somewhat annoying seeing as we don’t know what will happen. We all want things to go our way. Sometimes they do, but sometimes they don’t. There will always be obstacles in our ways. We just have to work through them. And we will work through them. Okay. So if it isn’t obvious, I am talking about me and Justin. We both realize that bad things can happen. But the trick is not to worry about bad things happening. When I had 5 relatives die in a matter of months, I worried constantly about who was going to die next. But no one has since. That is a good thing. During that time, I was mad at God. But I talked to people, and I worked through my worries. Things happened this week that have caused some problems. We worked through them. I think we can always work through them. Honestly, this didn’t scare me as much as it did him. It did at first, but we talked about it. I really hope I can help him get past his worries, and I want to know what about it scares him so much. Yes, there is always the chance of a problem that we can’t handle by ourselves. But I hope that any problems we have, we can work through them, even if we need help. That was a lot of rambling. I am tired. Goodbye. And I love you Justin.
I am home.
I have gone to Sonshine! Be back on Sunday. Leave again on Tuesday.
It is funny how months later I can read a post of Justin’s, and I feel feelings that I should have been telling him months sooner. My feeling aren’t those of love, well they are, but not how I love him now. The love that I have always had for him, that of the utmost care and compassion. The love that would make me sacrifice my happiness for his. This love has been one that I have felt for him for so long. And I look back at the way he was feeling during events, his reactions to circumstances, and the way that he views life, and I just need to stop and think. This person, whom I love so incredibly much, has always needed someone to love him. He has such compassion for others, for himself, for words. When I look back, I can only stop and pray that I told him these things 7, 8 months back. A year back. I hope that I told him how truly wonderful he is. How much he is needed to everyone around him. Sometimes he would want to run, as do we all. But I just hope that I told him how much I need him. How much I always have, and always will. Justin is my best friend. I can tell him things that I have never told anyone else. I love him in a way that I have never felt. I want him to be happy. Above all. There is no one I know whose happiness I want more. Justin is amazingly amazing. There is no better word that I can use. And even though he had certain feeling in the past, I need to tell him now and always, how absolutely perfect he is in my life. Justin, I love you.