I have scanned so many pictures! And soon I will upload them. As soon as I am done scanning. I don’t really like to do those two things at once. Justin is leaving on Tuesday for Nebraska. You know how I don’t want to be away from him for more than 2.5 days? Well, it will be 4 days. It sucks. I am slightly angry. Not so angry, just maybe sad. I don’t know. I just will miss him. We haven’t been apart for more than one day I think. It will be a test. I will just have to find something else to do. Maybe I will do something with Nikki. Nikki! Are you reading this? I am available the 1-3 to do something with you! And then on the 4, I will go up to Wisconsin some where. Or down. Or whatever it is. I think we will be on the St. Croix for wonderful 4th of July. But this is enough updating, I shall go scan!
Since the moment I spotted you
Like walking round with little wings on my shoes
My stomach’s filled with the butterflies… and it’s alright
Bouncing round from cloud to cloud
I got the feeling like I’m never going to come down
If I said I didn’t like it then you know I’d lied
Every time I try to talk to you
I get tongue-tied
Seems like everything I say to you
Comes out wrong and never comes out right
So I’ll say ‘why don’t you and I get together
and take on the world and be together forever
Heads we will and tails we’ll try again
So I say why don’t you and I hold each other
and fly to the moon and straight on to heaven
Cause without you they’re never going to let me in
When’s this fever going to break?
I think I’ve handled more than any man can take
I’m like a love-sick puppy chasing you around… And it’s alright
And slowly I begin to realize this is never going to end
Right about the same you walk by
And I say ‘Oh here we go again’
Oh yeah! Well here is how I feel about you!
I don’t want it to bother me that he doesn’t call.
I like calling him and I haven’t asked him to call me. I don’t want to be away from him for more than 2.5 days.
I want to see him at least every other day.I don’t want to get too clingy.
I like wanting to be with him.I don’t want to be annoying to him.
I want him to love me.I don’t want to cause stress on my relationships with my family.
I want them to support me in everyway.I don’t want to make him an alien and have him think it is dumb.
I want him to take it home and put it in his room, even if it is the bottom of a drawer.I don’t want to always be the one inviting him places.
I want him to call and ask me out.I don’t want to spend every "date" with a group.
I want to look into his eyes the whole night.I don’t want him to run away.
I want him to run to me.You know what the good thing is though? Everything that I don’t want, isn’t happening. Yes, I am scared. I am scared of the past. Past relationships made me sad. I didn’t like that. I don’t want that. I don’t want to cry over him. I want to be able to enjoy a family night without thinking about him too much. I want to know that he will be there even if he is not. I want him to love me and I want to love him. I love him. He loves me. I know that he isn’t like others were. I know that he won’t be running. I know him. I love Justin.
It is amazing how close you can be to someone. It is absolutely amazing.