Well I didn’t die. Thank you Jesus!
I am amazed how much I took my arm for granted. I will have full use of it soon, but it is so weird how great of a loss one surgery does to the muscles in your shoulder! I just hope that after all of my therapy is done, the pain will all be gone too.
During my Vicodin filled days, I have been keeping my brain moving with Sudoku! Unfortunately they are all difficult to read since I had to use my left hand. I am practically ambidextrous now!
I have had so many people taking wonderful care of me! I so greatly appreciate how much people helped me.
Also, many of you were worried about how well Justin would take care of me. I was pleasantly surprised how amazing Justin was! Despite teasing me about dying and having the abilities of a 5 year old, he has been so great. I love him so much and am so blessed to have him. I have had a great look towards our future during this time and have seen how great of a father he will be.
I feel like I should update my blog seeing as I have this goal of updating it often. It’s not like I am too busy to do so, I just forget to do it 🙂
On Wednesday I am having shoulder surgery. Not a huge deal, just fixing some things that are wrong with it. Besides getting my wisdom teeth pulled, I have never had surgery before, and I am a bit terrified. They aren’t even cutting me open, but I think my problem is that I watch too many doctor shows so I have seen the incredibly unlikely scenarios happen all too often. After the surgery I have to be monitored for 24 hours to make sure I don’t have a funny reaction to the anesthesia. Justin can’t be at home the whole time, so he wants to set up a webcam. Sounds like him doesn’t it?
In other news… still no job :-/ I fortunately have many smaller jobs that keep the bills paid. I am very grateful to God for this because I could have nothing. I just didn’t picture life after college to be the way that it is turning out to be.
The great thing about not having a “real” job is that it doesn’t really matter overall. I have a great life! I am married to someone that I love very much no matter how much we argue about the right way to do things! I have a loving family and great friends. Plus I have God, who provides for me and never lets me go.
Sappy, I know… but what if this is my last post?
If it is… Dad gets my car 🙂
There are many times in my life where I am envious of others. I will see someone who seems very happy and content and I will try to figure out what is secretly wrong in their lives. It is hard for me to trust that someone could be very content. I do not believe that anyone can ever be content with everything in their lives, but I know that there is a higher level of contentment that I am capable of reaching.
The Bible says, A heart at peace gives life to the body, but envy rots the bones (Proverbs 14:30). This week I think that I am going to start working on ways to be content in my life and find things that I am grateful for.
Starting tonight… I am grateful for:
- Having someone to snuggle up next to every night no matter what we went through that day
- Having a kitty to snuggle up next to any time of the day
- Being able to own a home, two new cars, and other nice things even though I still have not been employed
- Mom, Dad, and Ashley; Mom, Dad, and Amy
- Great friends
- God and His word
- Gold’s Gym
As I started writing those down, I realize that I could go on forever. There are so many things that can help me feel more content with my life that I already have. It is important to start appreciating them more.
Half an hour left before my first church council meeting! I know that I will have a lot to offer, and hopefully it will all make sense, but I am still a bit nervous. I think it is because I am the youngest member to sit on the council, maybe ever! Plus, I am just not sure what to fully expect. I will know soon enough!
Justin and I played Tetris for awhile Saturday. It was a lot of fun, and we ranked ourselves 9th in the world on the Tetris tournament. Pretty good if I do say so myself! John came over the next day and he and Justin beat our ranking, but I still felt worthy for awhile!
I am heading to the gym tonight after council, hopefully with Lindsey! It will be 3 of my necessary 12 visits this month. I am planning on more than twelve, but it is a great thing for me if I make it that many times! I also need to start working on not eating in the evening.
I finished the 1,000 White Women book that I recommended by Jim Fergus. It was incredibly amazing. I liked it so much that I went out and purchased his next book, Wild Girl. I recommend this one also. They are especially great books to read if you have any interest in Native American life and culture.
One last piece of advice, I downloaded this great solitaire game for my Mac the other day. You can get it at www.lavacat.com. It amazes me the way programs run on Macs!
I started school yesterday. It is my fifth year so I am a super senior! I like being super, but I am not so sure this is the way I wanted to accomplish superness. I have a light load of classes this semester but I think they will each give me their own challenges. I have to write at least 2 research papers and I am kind of nervous that I will not do well on them. I have a goal to have a straight-A semester, and seeing as this is my last chance, I really want to accomplish my goal.
I am married now as many of you know. It has been a challenge but a great one. It is hard to relate with many of my friends who are getting married around this time. Every wedding that I am attending in the next month or so involves a couple that were already living together. Justin and I were not living together, so getting married and him moving it has presented many more obstacles than the other couples will face, and more than I expected.
I cannot believe how happy I am though. Having Justin to fall asleep next to and wake up next to has been amazing. I love him so much, and I can see how much he loves me more than I ever could before. He even lets the cat sleep with us at my request!
Enough being sappy!
I am nervous about become a real adult in December. I have to find a grown up job! This is exciting but not, because I really have no idea what kind of job I will find. Having a history degree gives me a wide array of options, I just have to narrow them down!