Sometimes I think that I walk wrong. When I am walking for exercise, I don’t get shin splints and I don’t get sore muscles too often, but the outsides of my ankles hurt. I do not know why that is, but I am convinced that all of my life, I have been doing something so normal the wrong way.
Justin made microwave popcorn the other night. It killed me, and I in turn wanted to kill him. Now, I would never do that of course. It is just popcorn. But I am obviously still craving that which I cannot have. I think that is somewhat a good thing. If I wasn’t longing for it, it wouldn’t be a sacrifice. For example, when I was younger and Lent came around, I would try to give up things that I rarely encountered or that I didn’t like anyways. I would give up meatloaf and homework. Of course I want to not eat meatloaf and not do homework! That was not a sacrifice for God. And I was bound to fail – I had to do my homework!
I have worked out everyday this week so far, both indoors and out. This is the first time in a very long time that I have worked out four days in a row, and I am hoping to continue. Thankfully, God has blessed us with a few beautiful days to be outside. Today is a not so beautiful day, but that just means wear warmer clothes outside!
My Lent goals have been transforming since the beginning. I started out by giving up two food items that I LOVE! Then I wanted to start trying to eat healthier meal options, and then add in exercise. So far I have been doing awesome at it. My biggest problem though, is convincing myself that I do not have to have a snack after dinner. It is a very bad habit that I have long held, and will be a difficult one to break. I don’t imagine that I will do so by April 4th, but I am hoping to do so more and more.
Here’s to a continued journey!
Quote by Franklin D. Roosevelt
An amazing thing has happened while I have been trying to find something to fill my cravings – I have stopped craving! I honestly did not think that I would stop wanting chips and popcorn when I am hungry or in the mood to eat. Which is dumb, because I want to want it! Now at night, I eat crap less. I sometimes still do eat something but not because I am hungry, but because I just think that I should be eating. The great thing about this is that I have started to recognize the difference between being hungry and just wanted to eat something. I have never been able to do this before. I am also choosing and wanting to eat healthier options. Don’t get me wrong, I am still eating crap way too often, but not as often as before.
While this great thing for me has happened because of giving things up for Lent, it has not caused me to focus on God as much as I wanted it to. God does asks us “Do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own.” I feel that when I make wise decisions about how I treat my body, when I eat right and exercise, I am treating the body that God lent me with respect and that I am recognizing Him in my life.
The goal now for the rest of Lent for me is not only to continue doing what I have been doing along with exercising, but to also recognize exactly why I am making these choices. When I prepare my breakfast/lunch/dinner in the morning, I want to think about the fact that God grew those strawberries and cucumbers for me to eat, He used His people to plant the ingredients that make the hummus and wheat bread, He gave me the animals that were sacrificed for my turkey and salami, and He gave me my beautiful hands to put it all together into a meal. When I drive to work I will thank Him for the incredible sunrise/rain/snow that I am driving through. When I am working I will appreciate every moment because so many are not working. When I am walking on the treadmill, instead of complaining I will praise THE LORD that I have legs that move when my brain tells them to. When I lay my head down at night I will realize how blessed I am for the wonderful man laying next to me and for the perfect cat purring on my pillow.
And at this moment, in the class that I should be paying attention in, while I am typing on my Mac, I am in awe of His creations, His blessings, and the amazing days that He gives to me.
Quote by Arthur Koestler
This weekend was definitely a challenging one for a couple of reasons. First, a bag of chips kept falling off the top of the fridge saying, “Eat me eat me!” I didn’t. Second, my aunt made the best dip ever and the chips were sitting next to it saying, “I am way better than the celery option!” I ate the celery. I am actually fairly proud of myself for being so strong but I know that it wasn’t just me keeping me strong. I had a lot of help from the big guy upstairs.
I am feeling almost 100% healthy this week, but I am starting it off tired. It will again be a full week and weekend, so I am hoping to get some quality me time as well and me-and-Justin time, but that doesn’t always work out.
Church Council is tonight. I really enjoy it, but there are always some challenging moments. When we talk a lot about money and policy it is hard for me to remember that we are doing God’s work and His will is always done. I cannot forget that first I need to pray and then I can make wise decisions.
As far as the Oscars last night, I was surprised by some of the winners and came away with many more movies that I should watch. Before last night, I had no desire to watch Precious, but I might want to, and I definitely want to see The Blind Side. I may watch The Hurt Locker, but it is not a top priority. I loved Sandra Bullock’s speech and Jeff Bridges’.
Along with trying to eat healthier, I am going to dedicate time in my days this week to exercise. I haven’t stayed consistent enough doing so, and I know that when I do, I feel so much more alive.
It’s all in God’s hands.
Quote by A.H. Weiler
I have been horrible at updating my site, but awesome at resisting my temptations during Lent! It is true that I have sometimes found other things to eat when I feel a craving for chips or popcorn, but I am trying to eat a small portion of something or just eat nothing at all. It is continually a struggle, especially when Justin makes popcorn and I smell it! I am surprised at how quickly it is going though. I still have the long part ahead of me, just under a month left now.
I am looking forward to this weekend, and am very glad that it is Friday. I have a wedding shower to go to tomorrow. I loved my showers, but I am glad that I do not have to partake in them anymore! I love receiving gifts, but do not love that everyone watches and that I have to make sure and socialize with everyone. Tomorrow I will be able to enjoy the party in a different way. On Sunday I have an Oscar Party to go to that I am looking forward to. Then back to work on Monday!
Justin and I have planned our summer vacation that we are taking in July. We are taking a road trip to South Dakota and back through North Dakota. I never enjoyed road trips when I was younger, but Justin and I do really well on them. I am looking so forward to this time spent with him, alone!
At church we are in the middle of a series called Along the Way. It has been a great series to be in during Lent. While not every message in the series relates to me yet, or maybe just does not reach out to me right now, it has helped me remember that life is a journey, the path to God is a journey, and with every step I take I am making a choice: follow God today or not. I hope that I always choose to follow Him, but I am glad to know that if I take the wrong step, I can ask for His forgiveness and do better the next time.
Quote by Benjamin Franklin
I have spent time the last few days reading old posts. I have learned a couple of things through this.
- I was a normal teenager, just like my mom said. Moody, ornery, crazy, selfish, rude, happy, ecstatic, independent, reliant on other, and so forth.
- The most horrible days of my life were easily erased by my cute boyfriend, time spent with friends, and God.
- I had a lot of “this is the worst day ever”s.
Reading these posts helped me realize that no matter what problems were happening in my life, I made it through! Even though it appears that some weeks I was basically bipolar, it didn’t kill me. A common thread that wove through most topics was the presence of God.
We are taught many things through the Bible. God tells us that He will not give us more than we can bear in life. Being a teenage girl, I often felt that I was given more than I could possibly handle, but look at me now! I am 6 years past being a teenage girl! Jesus says that He will walk with us through life; nothing that happens will we have to encounter alone.
1 Peter 5:6-7 (The Message) says “So be content with who you are, and don’t put on airs. God’s strong hand is on you; he’ll promote you at the right time. Live carefree before God; he is most careful with you.”
Now relating this to my Lenten sacrifices… Giving up chips and popcorn, which sometimes feels painful, is truly not that difficult. God is walking next to me saying, “Thank you for doing this for me. You will make it until April 4th. I have no doubt, because I care for you, I love you, and I am right here.”
Quote by Benjamin Franklin
As I understand it, if you are Catholic and practicing Lent, on Sundays you get a break from your sacrifice. I have decided that I am not going to do it this way. On Sundays, Thursdays, Tuesdays and every other day, I am going to continue my devotion to avoiding my vices. The way I see it, Jesus, hanging on the cross, did not say, “Ok this sucks. Let me take 10 minutes and then I will come back up here.” If He didn’t get a break, either do I.
It is amazing to go through this Lenten journey alongside other people. An important woman in my life told me today about what she is adding for Lent. It was incredible to see her devotion. No matter how religious you are, adding something to your life or taking something away for 40 days and nights is a great act of self control. My hope is that it will become a habit. If you do something for 21 days in a row, it is supposed to become something that you do all of the time, or if you quit something for 21 days in a row you are supposed to get rid of that habit. While I am positive that on April 5th I will enjoy a popcorn breakfast, a Dorito lunch and nachos for dinner, I am hoping I do use food to handle emotions as much anymore.
I am excited to hopefully have a productive week. I often get a case of the Mondays very quickly that lasts until the middle of Thursday. This week is going to be different though. This week I am focusing on God more than I have in awhile. I am going to see Him in every aspect of my life and thank Him for His part in it.
*Quote by John F. Kennedy