Motivation of a Narrow Kind

There are so many things in life that require motivation.  Sometimes it is harder to get motivated to do something than to actually do it!

Take for example, going to the gym.  When I finally get motivated to go, I am almost as proud of myself as when I actually go!

Filling out job applications takes a lot of motivation, especially when 99% of them lead to rejection.  I feel that I am a very qualified applicant.  I have always been praised by employers and I really takepride in whatever job I am doing.  It is hard to express my worth on paper though, which is the way to apply for jobs!  I can only call and say I am interested so many times!  It is continually frustrating to be a new graduate in a bad economy.

The good thing is, I am blessed with the assurance that I am not in control.  God will take care of this job search of mine, I just have to leave it up to him and be patient.

That takes motivation too!

My Favorite Color is Green

There are many times in my life where I am envious of others.  I will see someone who seems very happy and content and I will try to figure out what is secretly wrong in their lives.  It is hard for me to trust that someone could be very content.  I do not believe that anyone can ever be content with everything in their lives, but I know that there is a higher level of contentment that I am capable of reaching.

The Bible says, A heart at peace gives life to the body, but envy rots the bones (Proverbs 14:30).  This week I think that I am going to start working on ways to be content in my life and find things that I am grateful for.

Starting tonight…  I am grateful for:

  • Having someone to snuggle up next to every night no matter what we went through that day
  • Having a kitty to snuggle up next to any time of the day
  • Being able to own a home, two new cars, and other nice things even though I still have not been employed
  • Solitaire
  • Mom, Dad, and Ashley; Mom, Dad, and Amy
  • Great friends
  • God and His word
  • Gold’s Gym
  • Books

As I started writing those down, I realize that I could go on forever.  There are so many things that can help me feel more content with my life that I already have.  It is important to start appreciating them more.

Solitary Confinement

Half an hour left before my first church council meeting! I know that I will have a lot to offer, and hopefully it will all make sense, but I am still a bit nervous. I think it is because I am the youngest member to sit on the council, maybe ever! Plus, I am just not sure what to fully expect. I will know soon enough!

Justin and I played Tetris for awhile Saturday.  It was a lot of fun, and we ranked ourselves 9th in the world on the Tetris tournament.  Pretty good if I do say so myself!  John came over the next day and he and Justin beat our ranking, but I still felt worthy for awhile!

I am heading to the gym tonight after council, hopefully with Lindsey!  It will be 3 of my necessary 12 visits this month.  I am planning on more than twelve, but it is a great thing for me if I make it that many times!  I also need to start working on not eating in the evening.

I finished the 1,000 White Women book that I recommended by Jim Fergus.  It was incredibly amazing.  I liked it so much that I went out and purchased his next book, Wild Girl.  I recommend this one also.  They are especially great books to read if you have any interest in Native American life and culture.

One last piece of advice, I downloaded this great solitaire game for my Mac the other day.  You can get it at www.lavacat.com.  It amazes me the way programs run on Macs!