Finding Happy

When one is set on finding happy in their life, the first key decision is to not listen to country music.

Riding home from babysitting tonight I was listening to the local country station.  One song I listened to talked about the woman’s dad dying.  The second one was about a car accident and not being able to walk.  Now when you are not in the greatest of moods, teetering on being depressed, hearing these songs brings these thoughts into your head:

“Oh no, my dad is going to die!  And according to the song I am the only one he has left, which means mom died and my sister died.  Then… I am going to get in an accident and lose my legs.”

It really doesn’t take that long to knock some sense back into me and realize that country music is just plain sad and not what I should be listening to at this point in my life.

So I am working on finding happy.  This consists of a few things that I have to find before I can find happy.

  1. Heart faith
  2. What makes me happy
  3. A normal sleep pattern

Let’s talk about #1.  I started going to Concordia last fall because I wanted to be a Lutheran social studies teacher.  Through that major, I was required to take Lutheran and religion classes.  Although I didn’t always do my best, I LOVED them!  I loved listening to the professors and learning all about God, Lutheranism, and my own faith.  While I was learning these things, I developed “head faith.”  This kind of faith for me was one where I finally understood what I had felt for many years.  I knew that what I believed had a strong foundation in the Bible and other doctrine.  Because I was taking so many religion classes and going to church on Wednesdays to lead, I stopped going to church on Sundays.  I thought I was getting enough God time.  I also felt that I was getting an incredible amount of deep knowledge about God, which I was, but since I was, church on Sundays just didn’t do it for me anymore.

After being bugged about going back and just wanting to start attending church again with my new husband, I went back to Sunday church.  I didn’t really feel anything, and it was more boring to me.  I thought that I just needed to get back in the swing.  When I was singing at church last Wednesday I felt nothing again, and I realized that all of my heart faith was gone.  In my head I still believe in God, but all of the butterflies and confidence and love that I used to feel while worshipping with God’s people is gone right now.  Angela Johnson told me some great advice though.  She said that it is much harder to wait for that God moment to come than to just keep showing up.

#2.  I do not really know what makes me happy in life.  I know that I love children and being around them.  I know that I love to read.  I know that I love spending time with my husband, family, and kitties.  And I know that I love doing crafts.  All of these things are things that I love and make me happy.  Now to find happy in life for me, I need to find something that will make me happy long term.  Any ideas?

The last one is to get on a sleep schedule.  No matter what I do in life, I need to have enough sleep!

Like I said in my last post.  I just need to be more happy than I am now.

Maybe I should learn to code…