It’s a Cruel, Cruel Summer

Yes, I am writing more about the summer.

Summer is bittersweet. I am always very relieved when finals are over. I start looking forward to next year’s classes, but I am glad for the break. I struggle to find a job and then once I do, I work my butt off to earn money. I love my family very much, but spending the summer with them causes me to go a bit crazy. Also, living in such a small house with no bedroom adds to the craziness.

So between money issues, family issues, and space, I am stressed. Summer should be a time for me to relax and have fun. But it really isn’t.

I calculated the amount of bills I will have over the summer, and it is ridiculous. Saving up is not going to turn out to be very successful. Plus I am taking time off of work to go to Nebraska for the 4th and to Sonshine. As much as I love Sonshine, I almost think I shouldn’t go. I don’t want to spend money on a ticket, nor do I want Justin to spend money on me. The money issue also makes me think that I should not go to Nebraska. I would be taking about 5 days off when I could be making money.

I just do not know what to do. I want to buy a futon for school. I realllllly want it. So how am I supposed to save for school, a futon, and pay my bills. I wonder if I should stop sponsoring a child, but I feel like it is very rewarding. It is serving God financially, like he calls us to.

You are probably getting sick of me worrying about money. I will talk Justin instead.

We recently celebrated our 3 year anniversary. I love him very much, and I tend to love him more and more each day. But he drives me crazy sometimes. Since he has moved into his new house, he can spend hours and hours on the internet right in his bedroom. So when I go over there, which by the way costs about 20 minutes of gas, we sit in his room and I get bored watching him work. I love him, and I want him to be successful and get his work done. I know that dating a computer guy means he will be on his computer a lot. During the school year, we were seeing each other on the weekends only. Now that we are both in town, I want to see him everyday. I may need to tone this down. I think we are both getting sick of each other, or we just don’t have anything to do. Seeing each other all of the time causes very short telephone calls at night. This also bugs me because I feel like he doesn’t want to talk to me. I know this is all ridiculous. He loves me and no conversation is just because we spend so much time together. I just miss him. I miss cuddling and talking and doing things other than sit at the computer. We have been playing cards with people which I LOVE doing. So I hope we can do this more. I just hope that we can still talk and that we get less sick of each other.

Some people blog every day. I am going to try and do that. You will all get sick of me talking animals, since I work at Petco now. And you may get sick of me complain about money or talk about Justin. But frankly, I do not care! I will ramble on about whatever the heck I want to.

On a last note, go watch this: