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Today is kind of a sucky day.  Well, not so much, just kinda.  I think tonight will be fun.  It is just what week it is.  The week in the summer where Justin spends time at MSA getting the school ready.  That does not bother me too much, but still it does.  I know that this is what he has to do.  And that is okay.  But it makes me worry that this will be the rest of our lives together.  This semester he will be taking 18 credits, have 2 jobs, and his own company.  It seems like a lot to do and have a girlfriend.  It won’t be as bad as "I love you and I will see you in January!" But it will be hard.  Maybe it won’t though, if I am at the dorms having fun, working, and doing the school thing.  I just do not like this week of the summer. 

In some ways, it seems like he does not want to spend time with me.  Just me.  He will go over and play cards with my family, and hang out with friends.  Last night we were going to do dinner together, and I was hoping that we would be able to share dinner with each other, just us, but no.  He was not hungry, and he was busy.  So that was okay.  And tonight I brought him dinner, and he barely looked at me.  I am sure he does not mean it as anything, he is just busy.  But I kinda miss him. 

Now I am sitting at MSA, waiting for Nikki to call.  Tonight should be relatively fun.  They will be sending off the collegers– me, and a few others.  I really wish Justin would be there.  I was there for his and Nikki’s, so I am really glad that Nikki is coming. 

Anyways, time to post.  Adios.