A Day

So today was a day.  Nothing too exciting.  It actually started out bad. 

Justin left for Nebraska today.  After he dropped me off at home after the drive-in, I bawled.  (sp?)  I was emotional… partially cause I was tired, and partially because I hate it.  I really do not like spending holidays apart.  I do not like spending time apart.  I know I should not have my life revolve around him or anything, and I do not think it does… but it does hurt when he is gone.  The thing is, he is the last person I think about before bed, the first when I wake up, the reason I watch the clock all day until I see him… it is kind of sad.  But I love him.  I am truly madly deeply in love with Justin.  I guess I do not care if I miss him.

So since my night ended sadly, this morning I was crabby.  I was tired and sad.  I was also a little late to work.  But that was okay.  I decided that I needed to spend tonight with Amber.  I came home, changed clothing and left.  I ran a few errands.  Then I called Nikki and I went over to Kristina’s house for a partay.

That did not start out as well as I wanted it to.  I did not feel that welcome.  I know that I was though.  I also felt sad.  I missed that boy of mine that I love so much.  I did not understand inside jokes, or a lot of the comments being made.  I was also sad that they did not come to the drive-in last night.  Until Nikki said that they tried, I thought that they just did not want to.

After a while, I began to feel a lot better.  I had fun playing with Barbies and poker.  I even had really good luck in poker.  If only I could get some of the luck that I had tonight when we play for money…

We had some food to eat at Kristina’s made by her wonderful mom.  And basically we just chilled.  Party included Jake, Jake, Nikki, Kristina, Me, Hammiller, Dibbs, and Kelly ( in no order of importance whatsoever). 

Things were very comfortable after awhile also, which was very good.  I even received a phone call from Justin which was nice.  Thanks honey 🙂

I also think I found my next tattoo.  I have been looking for the perfect lizard for awhile.  I love this one.  I want him on my back, lower back.  My mom wants me to wait until I turn 20, and Justin says not at all.  But it is my body, so I will decide.  To be honest, I would rather have it on my shoulder blade… but my aunt Heidi says that I should get one that will not show when I wear my wedding dress.  But I am not sure that I would care if it shows.  I mean, it is me!  Let people know that, I do not want to hide the fact.  I also thought about getting ‘dead’ on my other ankle so when I tell people that my first tattoo means alive, and they asked what will happen when I die, I can just turn around.  Hehe. 

Well, this is the longest post with the most solid content that I have written since the mood.  I hope my boy will read it all and is proud.  I will hopefully write more tomorrow… or actually later today.