i dont know what to do i want it to end i want to disappear i want to get better but i dont know how i need help
I have a new kitten. He is sitting in my shirt right now. He is black with white paws and a white tummy. His name is Samson. We got him on Saturday. It is really cute when he meows, cause he usually does not make any noise. He also likes to play with my fingers and bite them, which does not hurt at all. The other two kitties have not really met him yet, but the little time they have spent with himm they did not like him. They will grow to like him. I am sad. Depressed. worried, scared, in pain, anything you could think of I probably am. I went to the AT&T store today to see if they had a screwdriver for my phone that I needed to put on my new faceplate. The guy told me that he did but I should not change the cover because it makes the phone not work. I do not want my phone to not work, so I said ok and left. When I got into my car, I started to cry. I only spent $10 on my new cover, it really was not even that big of a deal, I just did not want anything else bad at that moment. I should not be writing my problems down. Other people have worse ones, and I should not burden people with them. But sometimes writing is all that I can do.I wish that I could fly away. Not really. But I wish that I could afford an apartment, or a place to live or anything. Just to get out of here.
So here I am sitting at the high school. I came up here to go out to eat with my friends. We ended up staying here, so I did not eat. I could have, but I just was not in the mood for school lunch, or to spend my money on something that I did not want. I wanted to go out to lunch with Justin, but that did not work out. He has to clean his room. So that is fine. I am just sitting here in the computer lab waiting until my key club meeting at 2. I hate wasting time on computers when I have nothing to do. But I am updating, so that is good. I should have lots to say. I have not updated in a while. I guess I can outline the last week or so.Halloween was fun. I had been sick, so I went to the doctor. Nikki and I went to a decorations store and decided on a Batman theme. Afterwards we did something… went to my house I think. We ran to Cub too. But we mainly just hung out at my house and watched TV and stuff. After a while Justin came over too and hung out with us.Saturday was my birthday party. It was tons and tons of fun. My family party was cool, and I got to see my cousin’s new baby. I think that about 30-40 people showed up at my birthday party. I think people had a good time, and I did too. Nikki slept over, which was a lot of fun. I do not get to hang out with her as much anymore.Sunday was my birthday. I started my day off by going to church. After church my family and Justin went out to eat at Perkins. It was a nice meal. We all went back to my house and just hung out for a while. Later that day my dad, Justin, and I went to the casino. We ate a good buffet dinner there and went out to gamble. I am not sure if I won to be honest with you, but I left with more money than I got there with since my dad and Justin just kept giving me money to gamble with. It was a lot of fun. I really do not feel like typing anymore. So goodbye.