What I Want

I don’t want it to bother me that he doesn’t call.
I like calling him and I haven’t asked him to call me. I don’t want to be away from him for more than 2.5 days.
I want to see him at least every other day.I don’t want to get too clingy.
I like wanting to be with him.I don’t want to be annoying to him.
I want him to love me.I don’t want to cause stress on my relationships with my family.
I want them to support me in everyway.I don’t want to make him an alien and have him think it is dumb.
I want him to take it home and put it in his room, even if it is the bottom of a drawer.I don’t want to always be the one inviting him places.
I want him to call and ask me out.I don’t want to spend every "date" with a group.
I want to look into his eyes the whole night.I don’t want him to run away.
I want him to run to me.You know what the good thing is though? Everything that I don’t want, isn’t happening. Yes, I am scared. I am scared of the past. Past relationships made me sad. I didn’t like that. I don’t want that. I don’t want to cry over him. I want to be able to enjoy a family night without thinking about him too much. I want to know that he will be there even if he is not. I want him to love me and I want to love him. I love him. He loves me. I know that he isn’t like others were. I know that he won’t be running. I know him. I love Justin.