Another week of school started today. But the good news is that it is one less Monday for the rest of the school year. It was a pretty good Monday too. Nothing bad happened, and it is very warm out! I got a cell phone, which I am very happy about. There is really nothing more to talk about. I think I am going to be a happy person from now on. There is nice weather, my house needs to be clean. I know! I will go turn the radio on loud, throw in some laundry, and do the dishes. Have a wonderful day! Live well, laugh often, love much.
So. The day has been interesting. I woke up with about ten minutes to get to the bus. I made it, with awful looking hair and a dumb outfit. I don’t recall much about school. At 1030 I got to leave to go to the doc. I have to have a chest x-ray done. Then my mom and I headed over to Best Buy. When we got there I saw Justin and John pulling away from GameStop. I called him up, and we decided to go out to lunch. We went up to church and recruited Derek to come along. Then Nikki called and she came with. We all headed up to Damon’s, well, Derek took about half an hour longer to get there. But we ate and then I headed over my ortho appointment. That was great fun.
I came home and I decided to go get a phone. Then I realized, with the help of Justin, that I would need to be 18. So that presented a problem. I decided to ask my mom to come with me tonight. But she said no. So I called my dad. But he sais that he had more important things to do. Those being watching hockey. After I got off the phone with my dad, I burst into tears. I really have no idea why. I guess it just made me really mad, even though he said that he would go with me tomorrow.
My moods have been changing a lot lately. Sometimes I am really happy, sometimes I am very depressed. I don’t really understand much of what is going on inside of me. I’m worried about things, and anxious about other things. And today I have had a splitting headache since 10.
But I do think that I am going to go now. I am going to go to the bank and then to LifeTime. Notice the title? Amber needs to not make those noises, so working out is what she’ll do. And I am going to swim.
Ok, I will update. I’m not a very happy person lately. I think I am scared. I am scared that my grades will be bad and I won’t get into college. I am scared that my teachers won’t like me. I am scared that I am too fat. I am scared I won’t have a summer job. I am scared that I will have a sumemr job that won’t give me time off for Arizona. I am scared I won’t raise enough money for Arizona. I also am worried. I am worried that I should be going to Jamaica, not Arizona. I am worried that Concordia won’t accept me. I am worried that if they don’t accept me, I won’t be able to handle another year at the high school. I am worried that Jon will get sick of me keeping things inside. Soon I will be visiting a psychiatrist. My mom thinks that I may have a chemical imbalance. I change moods so quickly. I am happy at one moment, but then at the next I will be completely sad. It scares me. I don’t want to push people away. But then again, I don’t try to invite new people closer.Hmm. Things are so confusing. But I am going to go to LifeTime now. So I will try to update more often.