Thinking Over

Thinking is the wrong thing to do. Especially overthinking. I am overthinking. I think that I worry too much about Jon and I. I don’t know why. It is probably because he is my first boyfriend, and I really love him. I don’t really need to worry about us, I think we are pretty good. In one week, it will be our six-month anniversary. The past six months have definately been the best of my life. I have never been this happy before. But I have no idea whatsoever to get him. I want it to mean something, but I kinda spent all the money that I have today. So, any ideas?I think I will tell you a couple things I overthink.The first one is my prom. We are for sure going to his prom. But I really want to go to mine also. I asked him and he said that he would if I wanted him to. And I really do. I know Jon is not a fan of proms, and he has a good reason to be. But I am going to go to my prom, and he is the only one that I would really want there with me. And prom is a big deal, so I think I will stick with him going with me. Second, I don’t really know. Well, I do. But I do not want the whole world wide web to know. So I am not going to share. There are other things that I have been thinking a lot about. This is Concordia. I really want this to happen next year. I do not know if I have explained to you all what I am talking about. I am thinking about doing PSEO at Concordia next year. I met with a counselor there and I have all of the papers. And as soon as Derek fills out my recommendation letter, I will send it in. I have been praying so hard and much, and I am so excited. I think I am getting my hopes up too high, which is bad. I still have not told Jon that I am considering this. There are a couple reasons. First, I don’t want to take the attention off of him right now. Afterall, he is the one trying to figure out college for next year. And second, I don’t want him to think that I am going there just to be with him. Yes, it would be nice to see him, but that really isn’t why. This is what I really want. I hope he doesn’t read this, and if he does, I hope he doesn’t get mad that I haven’t told him. I will tell him if I get accepted. But right now, I need a lot of prayer for what God’s plan is about Concordia.Tomorrow I start a new term. And I am tired, so I will say ADIDAS!jrcorps2: yeah, in which case, in your eyes, jon is perfect…


Okay, so I just spent a really long time updating, and my computer went stupid. So I will give a brief outline.1) I am loved.2) I am struggling with prom.3) I had a great weekend.4) God is good.5) I love Jon.6) I want to be a friend now.