I am really not a patient person. I wish I was. I want so many things out of life, but I can’t have them right now. But it seems like I won’t be able to have them for years. I guess I just need to live with that. I wish I had a best friend that I could talk to about this. Yes, Jon is my current best friend. But a girl best friend is I guess what I need. I didn’t go to school today. I cannot talk. And I was supposed to work, but hostessing doesn’t work that well when you cant talk. But i am going to go now. i need to lay down. i am getting hot flashes.